Thursday, April 07, 2016

found this here


You scored as Verbal/Linguistic. You have highly developed auditory skills, enjoy reading and writing and telling stories, and are good at getting your point across. You learn best by saying and hearing words. People like you include poets, authors, speakers, attorneys, politicians, lecturers and teachers.

The Rogers Indicator of Multiple Intelligences
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I haven't been writing enough.

...Maybe that is my problem. I have no energy. I always find some of that stuff when I sit and write a while. I want to be that girl again that is always up for anything and who can't stand to sit still. I miss her. She wasn't perfect but she was better than this.

I have a lot to be grateful for at the moment though. I have lost over 100 pounds and going. I am loved by a wonderful guy, who I love back. I am OFF of insulin! No more injections! Things are looking good in a lot of ways. I just want my energy back. I am told it will come and I am trying to have faith in all that I am told.

Monday, September 21, 2015


I thought I had reached a point in life that disappointment couldn't really affect me. But I was wrong. I am not going to really go into the ins and outs of it all here, but suffice to say I have a bit of a broken heart. It's going to mend up quick though. I have the support of my family and friends, and an amazingly supportive guy to lean on. I think I just was really caught off guard because things were going so well. It's just a speed bump though. I am changing my life if it kills me. And I've come way too far to turn around now. Who would have imagined 5 years ago I would be sober, smoke-free, on good terms with all my family, and my good REAL friends. I got out of that town. I got away from those people. I ditched all the toxic caustic people that I still love but can never have in my life while they can't see they are drowning. I like where I am at, even if I am super disappointed at the moment. =)

Monday, March 30, 2015


Added a second med for bipolar. I would like it to work, so I can stop crying for absolutely no reason at all. Also was told by the doc that I need to spend time outside every day. Guess I better get used to lathering on all that sunscreen,

Thursday, March 12, 2015


Apparently I am bipolar with a depressive tendency. So more meds, yay! Or not. But if it helps I guess I will continue taking them. I never see any of the upswings in mood, I only ever see the downswings. But I guess the people around me can see them both. I have been on the meds for a week and a half or so and I don't know if I see any kind of difference yet, but we will see. I just want to feel...right again. I haven't felt right in 5 years. Sad is a mainstay, even if I disguise it as happy. It's not jut about missing the angels I miss either. Though I do miss them more than I ever thought was possible.

So, fingers crossed the meds bring my real smile back, so I can put my fake one away.