Tuesday, June 28, 2005

howdy neighbors

I had today off. Spent a good part of it with the kids. I took them to the school playground and took pictures of them playing around and then we went to the river and played around there. Then I brought them back here to roll around in the grass with the dog. It was a really nice, slow, day. And tomarrow I get to go back to work. Open. Close. Open. Close. Open. I am working on the fourth, which means time and a half. I asked if I could open so I could be home that night but I don't know yet.

I am kinda caught up in the middle at work. One of my managers talks freely to me about a co worker and said co worker asks me questions I don't know how to answer. I kind of try to just stay clear of the subject with both of them. Sometimes it is hard to avoid so I get stuck with head nodding and excuse I need to go help this customer now. I try to be that person that everyone is comfortable talking to and this is where it gets me. Damnit anyway!

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Friday, June 24, 2005

incest is more interesting isn't it??? uh....yeah ok...

This is what I am using for wallpaper right now. How freaking yummy is that to look at while you compute???!?!?!?!! (thanks to Wayne for the middle picture!)

Thanks for the feedback on the previous post. I guess it would pique your interests a little better if I said they were brother and sister, huh. Yeah I know, ewwww. But it does give a little depth to the plot. The more I think about it I think I gave a bad scene to get critiqued. Lets try this one, if you don't mind:

Now he was trudging up the back staircase to the room he was told was his. He wished he had had the forethought to ask Maggie to prepare him a private bath before she tended Dalton. He was not too interested in slopping through the mud to and from the public bathing shed at this late hour. Nay he'd suffer through another night of dust caked skin. As tired and drunk as he was, he knew a little dirt would not torment his dreams.

He opened his chamber door to find Sabra staring back at him from across the room. Her hair was still wet from her bath, and she wore only her linen nightclothes.

She pointed to the tub in front of the fire and said, "The water is still warm if you wish to bathe."

"Why are you in my chamber?" He asked.

"Because it seems that when Dalton sent word ahead to his friend Duncan he wasn't very specific that your squire was to have a chamber of his own, and there are no rooms left to be had. You're stuck with me, and I am stuck with you."

"Aren't we a lucky pair then?"

"Where's your wench then?" she asked, her words dripping with sarcasm.

"She's probably doing a very fine dance in Dalton's lap right now."

"How very kind of you, to share with your kin, if she bears a bastard you can each blame it on the other."

"She shant bear my bastard since I didn't partake in her wares. And I'll mind you to keep your tongue behind your teeth, as your knight master I do have the right to beat some respect out of you." He growled.

"Do as you will, but I will not hold my tongue for any man, no matter his station over me." she screeched.

He quickly stalked across the room and took by the arm, dragging her to the bed where he sat and pulled her face down across his lap, his strong arms holding her as she squirmed about.

"How would you like it, covered or bare arsed?" he quietly asked.

She wiggled about furiously before realizing that brute strength wasn't going to overpower the big oaf, so she bit him on the leg, hard, and she didn't release him until she felt his grip on her loosen. Then she flipped her head back into his face, causing him to reel over backwards onto the bed while she landed on the floor squarely on her rump.

It took her less time to regain her senses then it took him and she sprang on him like a cat pouncing on unsuspecting prey. He caught her in mid air and through her back across the room while he proceeded to stand rubbing his forehead and his thigh where she had taken a chunk out of his flesh.

"You vicious little vixen!" he snarled at her smirking face and began to circle her; she copied his movements not allowing him close enough to grab her again.

"I'll not be beaten by someone who hasn't earned the right." she hissed, "I even make Eric catch me when he means to correct what he considers misbehavior. I'll make it no easier for you."

"You're over confident lass, I am a man and for all your trappings you are still just a wee girl, I'll catch you easily enough."

His taunting worked; she launched herself at him knocking the wind from his lungs and the smile from his face.

"Wee lass my arse!"

He caught her furious hands in his own then twisted her crossing her arms behind her back, immobilizing her. He leaned over her shoulder and whispered softly, "Caughtcha."

"Aye, you did and let me commend you on a strategy well played, but this wee lass is as wily as any man."

"Well you are stuck fast so I suppose you can't be all that clever." he said unsure why his words made her giggle as she suddenly was.

"Am I now?" she asked beginning to enjoy their bout. While she was speaking and holding his attention she deftly slipped her foot up behind his leg hooking it and dragging it from beneath him, a feat she only could accomplish if he was distracted. As he fell she crouched and stepped backwards underneath her pinned hands, then twisted as she stood again.

He still had a tight grip about her wrists, but she was now standing above him, a foot on either side of his torso, looking down into his startled eyes. After clutching his wrists as he did hers she said,

"Now it appears as if we have caught each other." He cocked his eyebrow and looked up at her warily, a half smile beginning to curl at the corner of his mouth. A look that almost looked smug to Sabra, a look she found annoying.

"I'm rather tired, squire, I forfeit I'll beat some sense into your dense skull tomorrow. Now, I order you to help my aching arse up from the floor so my bath isn't too cold to abide, I'll concoct a proper punishment whilst I bathe."

"If I wasn't so sure you are my fathers son I'd call you a bastard. For now I'll forgive ye called me just a wee lass and perform my duties as your squire, but know I won't forget you said it and know I'll make you recant it." She said before helping him to his feet.

"Oh aye, I'm sure you will, but I will always remember that I caught you, and I'm sure you'll never forget that either." He began to remove his tunic and started for the bath.

"What are you doing?" she asked turning her back to him.

"Bathing. I'm too drunk and tired to spar with you more. Though I must say it is rather amusing. Keep your back turned another moment." she didn't need to be told, instead of turning back after she heard splashing she walked over to the pallet underneath the window and crawled inside her bedroll.

When she woke the moon was still shining in through the open window. Ember was purring away inside the foot of her blanket, causing Sabra to roll over trying to get more comfortable. She was almost content with her position when she noticed that there was an arm hanging over the bathing tub.

She scrambled out of her blanket and rushed over to the tub fearing that the fool had drowned himself. She almost laughed out loud when she discovered he was alive well enough, only near frozen with cold.

She was a little surprised when she shook his arm to rouse him and he looked up at her softly, stood and kissed her.


Well what thoughts do you have about this one? I appreciate them all by the way. Thank you in advance.

Tuesday, June 21, 2005

Does it wet your appettite for more?

Ok so my loyal readers know I am making an effort to write a book. I am going back through what I already have and fleshing it out and editing and DELETING ALOT, just to turn around and re-write what I erased. What I am asking of you dear friends is to wade through this scene and tell me HONESTLY what you think of it. I can take critisism and thrive upon it so lay it on me, thanks!


Sabra had just finished saddling Storm when she sensed Raoul behind her. "I had begun to worry that you would be late for your match." she said showing no emotion.

"It's nice to know you care." He said coolly to her rigid back. He waited for her response and when he received none he continued. "I'll not have you wandering off alone again." He ordered, taking a step closer to her turned back.

"I may be your squire but you are NOT my father!" She growled while turning to face him, unprepared for how close he was to her. In the same moment he stepped into her, placing one hand at the nape of her neck and the other at her cheek, pinning her to the stable wall.

"No," he whispered, "I am not your father, and it is a good thing too, because if I were, I'd have to take you across my lap and throttle you, for your lack of respect!" He made the mistake of looking into her eyes and was lost to them, "How..?" he began to ask while leaning in to kiss her.

Sabra's body crackled with heat, the moment he touched her, her blood turned to fire, and her mind reverted to instincts she didn't know she possessed, she hungrily returned his kiss. Her hands crept up his back to tangle in his hair and his arms supported her weight, the world became nothing, all there was, was this kiss, until an approaching footfall disturbed their bliss.

Raoul came to his senses first, stepping away from her while still holding her weight against the wall. "I think you've bewitched me." He whispered, "You've damned me that's certain, now at least pretend to be composed someone comes." He removed his hands and though her knees continued to tremble her legs supported her weight on their own.

Caroline entered the stable to find Sabra rubbing down Storm and Raoul donning his chain mail, both seemed flushed. She watched them fidget for a few moments before remarking, "It's a bit warm in here, I think we'd all do well t' find some fresh air, and M'Lord ye'r due on the tilting fields soon."

Raoul looked up at Sabra's maid, and wondered when she had arrived at Morenterre and why she seemed to be watching him so closely with her steady brown eyes. Finally she smiled and he faintly returned the gesture.

"I think you are right. Now if my squire is done with my mount I'll be off." Sabra turned and silently offered him Storm's reigns and his helm, he accepted them with a cool smile, "Thanks kid." he said while turning his back to her and as he passed took Caroline's hand bowed and kissed the back of it, "It was a pleasure to be in your company again and I look forward to our next encounter." Then walked passed her.

Caroline turned to Sabra and wondered if she was aware that she openly balked, "M'Lady, close yer mouth, or a fly may fly in." When Sabra frowned Caroline smiled and added, "Soon ye'll learn how to tell when a man's after ye'r attention."


Ok Storm rider, his horse was named a really long time ago, so it wasn't named after you. But he is a battle stallion so I am sure you would have been okay with that.

Concensus time boys and girls......Cheesy or No????

Sunday, June 19, 2005


I officially get my "promotion" on the 1st of the month. Which means a raise, benefits, accrued time off, sick pay, my birthday and anniversary off and paid, gauraunteed full time hours and an assured yearly raise. Downside? Well I will be working a lot of nights, but I do that a lot anyway so nothing new. I am being pushed for an addition promo by two of the managers and three of the front end supervisors to be added to the rank of Front End myself. So another raise may be on the horizon. What does that mean to me? A lot, less stressing over bills definately. More opportunity for advancement, because once you sell 'em on this one you climb the ladder fast. And thirdly, I get to throw my weight around a lot more. That is important when you work with a jack ass or two. Most of the people I work with are wonderful and I count many of them as friends now, but there are two or three who are just plain lazy. It will give me the authority to get 'em off their asses and back to work.

I have plans for those larger checks too. Besides just having more financial breathing room, I have a few purchase I have been waiting to make:

1. A Pro Flickr account. I am a newbie to the photo sharing network but I am already a flickr whore and use up all my bandwidth way before the month is out.
2. get a new car stereo and tires.
3. Fix the laptop.
4. Fix the DVDR.
5. New contacts and Prescription Sunglasses.
7. Eurolights for my car.
8. IPOD photoplayer
10. A better Cell because the one I have doesn't work for sh*t!

Ok I will limit my superficial wants to ten for now.

That is my news for now. Spent Fathers Day very quietly with my dad watching movies and lounging around. And now I better get back to it, gonna watch Oceans Twelve next I think........drool....Brad Pitt.

Friday, June 17, 2005

too many tatoos to choose from

I got my first tatoo when I was eighteen and really have wanted another every since the inker finished it. I want so many different ones though that I can’t single out which one I want to get. Any ideas? I drew this one but I don’t necessarily feel the need to draw the next. Help me! What should I get???

Thursday, June 16, 2005


Took this for fun, hope it's right....

Your Seduction Style: Ideal Lover

You seduce people by tapping into their dreams and desires.
And because of this sensitivity, you can be the ideal lover for anyone you seek.
You are a shapeshifter - bringing romance, adventure, spirituality to relationships.
It all depends on who your with, and what their vision of a perfect relationship is.

Wednesday, June 15, 2005

Is there another word for doubt?

I doubt myself often but not in the simplest of senses. I have come to accept that is okay to be unsure. Not of who I am but where I am going and even what I want. I want a lot. I see so many roads in front of me but when I try to envision where I am going with my life a haze nestles in a mutes my forsight. It would be nice to think I could settle on one road and it would take me to some blissful future. But (as ever, there is always a but) I am left witless as to a direction and again doubting what tomarrow will be made of. And the list of wants grows daily making it even harder to narrow the many winding roads.


I want someone to hand me their heart openly and trust without fear that I will not drop it and will keep it safe inspite of who I am. I know no soul that is willing to take that leap…if you are out there hurry and find me….I am waiting.

Tuesday, June 14, 2005

the book

I am about two thirds of the way through my novel, with no assurety that it will ever reach its conclusion. I know exactly how it will end but it makes its own road and finds every detour it can.

Monday, June 13, 2005

Shots from the lake

Originally uploaded by speakslyrics.
~~~the kids were playing by the water, and it struck me as beautiful.~~~

This is my favorite shot off the day.

Like I said it was a cold day but the kids had no trouble making the most of it. I love how kids can do that; find a way to turn a miserable day into something fun and enjoyable. They had a blast which made it a little more enjoyable for me. Can't wait to be out there on the water when the wind lets up and the sun burns a tad warmer. Hope you liked the pictures.

Flock on the water

Flock on the water
Originally uploaded by speakslyrics.
~~~this was a flock of Canadian Geese that kept swimming past the camp.~~~

I got a lot of shots off these guys but this one came out the best I think.

Sunset Over the Lake

Sunset Over the Lake
Originally uploaded by speakslyrics.
~~~sunset over the lake on a cold day of summer~~~

How pretty is this one?

Saturday, June 11, 2005


I spent the day out at the lake where my sister was camping. I froze my ass off all day. The wind rolling in off the water had an icy bite to it and left my teeth a chattering. I did however take 300 + pictures so I will post some of those tomarrow after work. Till then, sweet dreams my dears.


Originally uploaded by Joshb60796.
I love this picture it was so cute that when I saw it I had to share it with you guys!

Thursday, June 09, 2005

so theres a little lead in my foot...your point?

Dave Grohl is SEXAY! Anyone who can sing those words in that voice is just....UGH....no words, just FINE!

I've got another confession to make
I'm your fool....

I'd also love making a little half Samoan baby with Mr. Johnson, he is just perdyful. Sigh. Ok tear my eyes away from the movie awards and type a real post...

So I got pulled over again and I sniffed a little and looked all sad like and I got out of the damn thing. Though to be honest I think my speedometer is wrong or off or whatever, because once again he said I was going faster than my speedometer said I was going. That aside it was like midnight and the only other person on the road was behind me hitting me with his highbeams, the cop should have pulled him over, not me. Did I use feminine wiles? No. I played the sympathy poor me card. Gotta problem with it? Too bad. I don't have two tickets in less than a week do I?

Side note: PEOPLE TURN OFF YOUR HIGHBEAMS WHEN YOU HAVE SOMEONE IN FRONT OF YOU! I am already half blind don't go making it worse!

Okay now I am gonna go write a couple pages of the book, I'm feeling the muse tickling me just behind the ear and I better stop ignoring or the bitch'll bite me.

Wednesday, June 08, 2005

uh yeah so...

...I got pulled over again on my way home tonight. Details in the morning.

Tuesday, June 07, 2005


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Wasn't todays double rainbow gorgeous?
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It rained a lot today but the sun was out too. I love sunshowers, they are so beautiful. Dark black skies etched with sun beams and lit up with colors that just seem so out of place in the air, so impossibly gorgeous. This is just another reason I am in love with Oregon.

I have some time later this week to really get caught up here, and yes my friends, you are important enough to make sure I get back to our little nieghborhood on the net, so please don't think I have ditched ya'll.

Sissy seems to think it is funny that I got a speeding ticket last week. Damnit I was only going 84 in a 65 zone. Of course I saw 79 on my speedometer so I think he was mistaken, but it gave me a nice $141.00 fine to pay. bleh! anyway back to regularly scheduled programming soon, I hope.

Saturday, June 04, 2005

Yeah I am a thief...sorta

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Another shot over the field at dusk tonight.

The other day I went to the grocery store with my mom. She bought one of those new vibrating razors. They were suppossed to be one sale but when we got back out to my car she noticed that she was charged the full amount. So being the person that I am I went back in to check on it. I went to the display and sure as shit it was on sale so I grabbed one and took it to the register (incase they needed to scan it)and told them that they had over charged me. She left me standing in line while she went to check the display herself. Bitch came back and said I was wrong. So what did I do? Well I walked out with the second razor, and the cow is none the wiser. Guess she should have given me my mom's buck fifty. I went back the next day and they were still on "sale" and they still rang up wrong.

Tomarrow I will tell you about the ticket I got yesterday. But now I am going to bed. I ended up dealing with picking up my nieces and shopping and errands and what not today and I had planned on staying in bed all day...bah...goodnight!

***Oh and the vibrating razor, well it doesn't work any better than a regular one, save your money***

Wednesday, June 01, 2005

help me rhonda!

My apologies to those of you having trouble veiwing my page. I don't know much about firefox so I don't know how to fix the problem, and I really like this template so I would rather not start over. Does anyone have any idea how I might fix it? I need help on this one.

We have a visited coming at work from the head honcho so they have kept us at work late. Hopefully I will get home before 2 am tonight, but we'll see. Last night we were fortunate enough to escape by midnight, but tomarrows the big day so I think we are stuck until we reach perfection. Not an easy task when you consider how our lovely customers trash our store on a daily basis. Brightside? Tomarrow will not only be my Friday, but the visit will be over and I will get out of work early! Too bad I only get the one day off. But I'll take it, maybe next week I will get my days off together so I can really get something done! See ya'll later!