Friday, December 31, 2004


It is only 5:40 and there are already fireworks going off in the neighborhood. My cat has taken several chunks out of my legs in her attempt to scare them to get away from the loud noises. Of course this is nothing compared to her antics on Independence Day. The 5th of July is usually a day spent bandaging wounds on my ankles. One day I will learn to wear boots or something.

I have always loved New Years Eve, but this year I am just too tired to celebrate too enthusiastically. I am just wiped out. I haven't been getting any sleep because I am getting wicked leg cramps at night and end up pacing the house instead of sleeping. And I have never been the type who could sleep during the day, though I can lounge and doze a little, I am still tired. I would rather curl up and watch some movies than party. Besides it just doesn't seem like it should be the end of the year already. I dunno what I'll do yet, though I do have a couple of posts I have been planning on, so maybe I will type those up. In anycase I will let you know tomarrow or later tonight.

As for everyone else....HAPPY NEW YEAR...Have fun, Stay safe, and tell me all about it tomarrow!

Thursday, December 30, 2004

It's friday feast time ladies and gents...


Using only 5 words, describe how 2004 went for you.

An out of control rollercoaster


Name something you did in 2004 that you'll probably never do again.

Work in Social Services. It is to draining. And not the best profession for anyone who is laden with empathy.


What did you learn about yourself in 2004?

That I count on things too much. I get my hopes up and suffer disappointment when my plans do not achieve fruition. That and I trust too much in people I do not know yet.

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What notable news event from 2004 will stand out most in your memory?

The Tsunami is first and formost in my mind, but the election will probably by a prominent occassion in my memory.


Name something you purchased in 2004 that you really, really like.

My car, I like my Sonata, though it wouldn't have been my first choice it definately has grown on me. Especially since it goes when I want it to. ;)


New Year new layout. What do you think? I loved this picture I took a while back and decided to use it as my new starting point.This is the street I live on and I think the haze of the early sun makes for a good analogy of the future; you can't see it clearly, you have some sort of an idea of what will come but you can't quite bring it into focus.

I plan to make a lot of changes over the next couple of months, changes for the better, I only hope that this year I am better prepared to stick with my resolutions. I am 25 years old, knocking closely on 26 and I feel like I haven't done a damn thing with myself.

So I WILL finish writing this book
I WILL find a job that I LOVE
I WILL get into better shape
I WILL save some money to pay for the things I want
And I WILL pay off my debts (or at least make a good start)

It seems like a really small list. Lets see how my resolve holds out this year huh.

Tuesday, December 28, 2004

Where did all the sound go?

It is finally quiet around here again. I hafta say that is nice. I do love having everyone around but I am also one of those people who crave high pitched giggles from the kids and no bunch of people each talking louder than the other trying to ensure that they are heard. And now New Years is coming and I can honestly say I don't really want to party too hard. My sister is moving into her new place that weekend so our attention will be elsewhere anyway. I do however intend to hold said sister to her word of making me manicotti for new years dinner.

I have so many little tasks I want to do and I just can't motivate myself to get them done. I need to re-enter a ton of addresses and other info into my Palm that will be tedious. I have to go through my books and get the ones I don't intend to use anytime soon ready for storage, or sale, that will also take forever because I have loads of books. I want to get at least 7 bracelets made, that shouldn't take too long but it does give a person a good handcramp to do more than 3 at a sitting. And most importantly I need to re-type those 60 pages of Blade that I lost when the computer went kaput, and then get back to work on it. I especially need to do that before my dad takes back his offer to edit it for me. Oh and I want to work a little more with my guitar. There are a lot of other things too, but I don't even want to think about those.

Tomarrow I am going to look for another gift for my mom that I was unable to get before Christmas because paydays fell all out of whack, hopefully I will be able to locate at least one of the 2004 Holiday Barbie that she said she wanted to start a collection with. If I can't find that I suppose it will be another Snowbaby for her collection. I hate shopping. But I'll get over it. ~Night all!

Sunday, December 26, 2004

I got presents!

My 2 sisters and I got a pair of earings each. I got the Saphires, though my birthstone is Aquamarine, they didn't have them, my sisters got theirs though Ruby and Perodite. Aren't they perdyful?

I had a nice Christmas, a little loud, but nice otherwise. Still have a lot of food leftover and alot of deserts since everyone was too full to eat any of them after dinner was done. At least 3 people left the table absolutely miserable!

Looky I got the new Rachael Hale book!

Saturday, December 25, 2004


All the Year Through

The sun rises, as does the moon at dusk,

the days go from short to long and back again

we wake and we sleep and we dream

We begin we advance and we end

we work, we play, and we rest

We seek happiness and good fortune

we feel love and hate and compassion

The season's change, the air goes from crisp to warm to hot.

Holidays are celebrated with loved ones near and far,

be it in the flesh or only in the heart

All the year through.

We age in a world where things are moving so fast that we rarely slow down to enjoy our blessings. We grow in a time when the clocks tick off hours instead of seconds, many of which are spent on the run instead of in the comfort of our homes. We Love at a point in history when we've become accustomed to expressing that love at one season of the year. That saddens me, though I am guilty of it myself. I want everyone to know that I love them, not just now, but All the year through.

Friday, December 24, 2004

The best of the Pictures we Took

All 7 of them in front of the tree
Shea Lynn
He was so happy to find this train decoration
Dane loves Trains
Raina and Shea
Here are my favorites of that day!
This is one of all 7 of my nieces and nephews in our front yard.

Christmas Eve

It's Christmas Eve and I finally got everything done. Everything is wrapped and looking pretty under the tree. All the little things have been done, no more trips to the store, no more tidying's done! Relief and Exhaustion are dripping off of me. I am ready for tomarrow.

Merry Christmas everyone, I hope your holiday is wonderful and everything you want it to be. ~much love~

P.S Now I will start posting the pictures!

Thursday, December 23, 2004

My ears are Ringing

I just spent two very long days with Lots of kids! Yesterday I had all 7 of my neices and nephews so I could take their Christmas pictures and so I could have them record Christmas Carols. LOUD. very loud. Then today I took 3 of them with me to show my Aunt some stuff on her computer and those three with her two were nearly as bad. I am still working on Cd's for people and will probably still be at it through tomarrow if I keep taking as many breaks as I have been. I think I am gonna end up making 5 per person and with about 10 people who want them, I will be sick of music for a couple days at least!

Tomarrow will be spent finishing up on the wrapping and then making treats: buck-eyes, fudge, and cookie pudding. I think it will be loads of fun. (hear the sarcasm?) Actually it shouldn't be too bad my Gramma is here to give me a hand. We'll see how it goes. I will try to post some of the pictures we took tomarrow.

Monday, December 20, 2004

The song Meme-ory game

K snagged it from JaG

Here's the deal:

Step 1: Put your media player on random.

Step 2: Pick your favorite lines from the first 25 songs that play.

Step 3: Post and let everyone you know guess what song the lines come from.

Step 4: Cross out the songs when someone guesses correctly and give them credit.



1. Where do we go from here? Which is the way that's clear?

2. I won't leave a note for anyone to find. Tomorrow they'll know what I've done here tonight.

3. Long legs and a mini skirt, you know what works and you work it hard.

4. I believed in your confusion, so completely torn, It must have been that yesterday was the day that I was born.

5. I wear my jeans a little tight just to watch the little boys come undone. MrsLile Gretchen Wilson, Here For The Party

6. he never made me feel like I was special he wasn't what I was looking for

7. I saw this girl she could rock my world and I had to adjust my fly. Texas Biscuit Wild Thing - Tone Loc

8. If it's too hot than get your ass up out the kitchen listen carefully I don't give a damn if you don't care for me.

9. Things were copasetic till she caught him; things were cool and collected till she found him erected with another.

10. It was good while it was whatever it was.

11. There's winners and there's losers but that ain't no big deal cause it's the simple man who pays the bill...

12. I remember the look that was in his eyes, stealing kisses from me on the sly, taking time to make time.

13. Beginning to think that I'm wasting time I don't understand the things I do.

14. I been haunted by a whisper a chill comes over me, I am trapped inside this moment; I am not a victim I'm not afraid.

15. I think about your face and how I fall into your eyes.

16. That's right put your pom poms down getting everybody fired up.

17. I'd like to believe we could reconcile the past, resurrect those bridges with the ancient glass.

18. Baby I'm sorry I don't mean to cry, but I never needed you more than I need you tonight.

19. I've got a first class ticket but I am as blue as a boy can be. Texas Biscuit Walking in Memphis - Mark Cohn

20. Animals strike curious poses, they feel the heat that between me and you. JaG Prince, when doves cry

21. Somewhere there's a stolen halo, I used to watch her wear it well

22. Voices are calling from inside my head
I can hear them I can hear them
Vanishing memories of things that were said
They can't try to hurt me now

23. heaven is in the palm of my hands and it's waiting here for you .:A:. Close my eyes forever by Lita Ford

24. Don't lose your grip on the dreams of the past, You must fight just to keep them alive Jenny Survivor - Eye of the Tiger

25. I don't need no one to tell me about heaven I look at my daughter and I believe JaG Live, Heaven

Sunday, December 19, 2004

Wiped out!

Sore.....feet.....killing me.....many loooooooonnnnngg hours trudging around TWO different Malls.....annoying Christmas shoppers trying to trudge upon my toes.....I need time to recover!

Saturday, December 18, 2004

breathe the clouds

it's painful the way i am stripped of breath
and left longing for something to fill my chest
after just one bright moment of beauty

so fiercely i want to bring it back in
that i inhale the clouds and swoon within
at the taste of such sweet cruelty

still i stand with the sun in my eyes
waiting for my soul to drip from the sky
and to be held again in the arms of the rain

i cannot reach it though, its too far gone
blown away because it didn't belong
and breathless again i await the pain


Snapped off this picture yesterday and wanted to put down a few words to go with it.

Friday, December 17, 2004

The REAL tree

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OK here is the tree THIS year. I finally found some batteries so I could download it. The lighting in the living room isn't the best so you can't see it as well as if you were sitting on our couch, but you get the idea. Whatcha think?

Addictions, cravings, and a big fat feast

I think I am addicted. To the big black comfy chair in our living room. It is huge and fluffy and it heats up and massages too. If I recline in it I am a goner for the rest of the day. Take the chenielle blanket and my cat in it with me and I am afraid I would never get out of it!

I am craving Cinnimon Rolls now thanks to Kris and her posts about making her grandmas rolls. But there is no good place to get them around here without driving all the way up to Eugene, and I am not exactly a whiz in the kitchen so I have to suffer. *pout*

OK feast time:


Friday Feast


What is something that never fails to grab your attention?

Music and books. If there is a music section in a store that I am in, I hafta check it out, same for bookstores, if I am anywhere near one I am soon to be inside drooling. But more than anything I suppose I am the cat queen, whenever I see cat anything I beg for it. Also Celestial stuff and Tarot decks . Tarot cards have some gorgeous illustrations on them. I have a small Collection of decks I would like to see grow.


Who was the last person who gave you money, and what was it for?

Um my mother, we were doing Christmas cards together and she wanted me to run downtown and get us each a fountain drink.


If you were a Smurf, what would your name be?

Probably NEEDY Smurf or Bitchy Smurf according to my family. I'd like to think it would be Creative Smurf, but that is a matter of perspective I suppose.

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Do you believe in astrology? Why or why not?

I would have to say yes to a degree. Because I don't know how else my Pisces Profile could be so accurate. And believe it or not a lot of times (not nearly all the time though) my horoscope is relatively close to accurate.


Have you seen any snow this year yet? What's the weather like today in your area?

No. Not yet. *sticking out lower lip* But it is cold as all get out and there has been a little in the foothills, so I am hoping it will come soon!

Thursday, December 16, 2004

Dreeeeaaaam Dream Dream Dream

Last night I had a really weird dream. My friend K was in it. It made absolutely no sense at all. But it was funny. For some reason K was at my house, She lives in Idaho and I live in Oregon so it wouldn't be common for either of us to be at each others houses. But there we were driving up to my house and getting out. And in my dream I had some interesting pets, which seemed to traumatized her greatly as she spent the rest of my dream running around the house trying to get away from my miniature horse, a little pink rat dog, and a really big bunny rabbit! She was hauling ass and the furries were definitely giving chase. I woke up laughing, just because of all the harmless animals in the world to be chasing someone...It cracked me up! What the hell was that dream supposed to mean? I swear I have the weirdest dreams sometimes! What about you guys?

Wednesday, December 15, 2004


Christmas is coming way too fast for me. It feels like Halloween was just a couple weeks ago. I wish this time of year lasted twice as long. I love everything about winter. Especially Winter in Oregon. There is a crispness that just makes everything feel clean and fresh. The cold makes you want to snuggle down with a great big down blanket some hot chocolate, your favorite kitty and a good long book. In the mornings everything just sparkles, from the lawn to the windchimes everything shines with frost and looks like a great big world of diamonds. It gives you a reason to wear your comfy clothes like fleece sweaters and chenille socks, and running all over town in your slippers. Of course when it isn't Winter I go everywhere barefoot. Anyway I guess I just wish winter could stick around a bit longer then it does, we are all always in to much of a rush to ever really enjoy it properly.

Oh Christmas Tree Oh Christmas Tree...

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OK so this is our tree, from the year before last year (we didn't have a tree last year due to having new floors put in). It is identical to this years tree. I am posting this picture since I still can't find my batteries. The only difference is that now we have nice beige carpet and curtains. I will still post the other picture when I get it downloaded. Is Christmas really only 10 days away? Oy!&

Tuesday, December 14, 2004

CDS and more CDS they are everywhere!

SO I got the new computer and all and now have the lovely task of trying to retrieve what I need off of disks. I have gone through at least 50 disks already and have barely put a dent in the stack. Of course that is what comes from being a download queen who is obsessed with music, screensavers, games and programs. What is funny is that all the screensavers, games and programs rarely get used once I download them, they just take up space. So eventually I back them up onto disk and they just sit there, worthless. So most of theses disks are filled with music data files, a shitload of graphics, and a bunch of junk! But I still insist on going through all of them because one might contain even one photo that I took myself, or one piece of writing I backed up. It is taking forever!!!

My original goal was to find as much of my book as I could so I wouldn't have to re-type a whole bunch of it. I have found one version of it that would mean I need to re-type 60 or so pages. Ugg I hate typing things that way, coping things is boring I want to be typing things I have never typed before! Well I am off to tackle the next disk, G~night!

Monday, December 13, 2004

She calls them Trolls

Happy Anniversary to my sister. Her and my brother in law got married on Friday the 13th, 2 years ago. What a day to pick to get married on huh?

I found out I will be an Auntie again today, my friend M just found out she was pregnant with her third baby. That means now I have 2 friends pregnant. One who was on the pill and hadn't planned to get pregnant again for a while (M). And one who has tried several times to get pregnant, even has gotten pregnant more than once and lost the babies, and is now finally carrying her baby beyond the first trimester, and who is desperate for a child now (K). I wish K would have had M's luck as far as ease of becoming pregnant. But more than that I hope she has a problem free pregnancy from now until she delivers her child.

Right now though she is having a problem that is truely pissing me off. She keeps a blog of her own and writes some really detailed accounts of how she feels and what she does. Things about her pregnancy, her marriage, and any troubles she is experiancing. And her reward for writing thought provoking views on her life is some REALLY mean jerk who just thrashes her up oneside and down the other over nearly every post she writes. He gets really nasty. Of course I bitch him out as much as I can but I can't help but wonder how much she can take of his utter bastardness before she quits writing. People like that piss me off. What good does it serve to bring someone down that you don't even know? Why are some people just worthless?

Our Tree Topper

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For Brechi: This is the Angel we put on top of our tree. She is pretty big; about 12 inches tall. The colors on her dress are the colors of the rest of the decorations. I know I said I would post a picture of the tree trimmed but I never got that far tonight. Hopefully tomarrow, cuz I want to get it done and out of the way so I can just enjoy how pretty they are.

Sunday, December 12, 2004

Almost done....

Well today was spent finishing up Christmas cards and got the tree up and covered with lights but the ornaments will have to wait until tomorrow. Yesterday I rode around delivering Christmas cards to the family that live locally. It took four hours out of the day. I didn't feel much like doing it because I didn't and still don't feel spectacular. But my dad was going around so I hitched a ride with him. Of course his idea of fun is driving the back way to everywhere. Nothing like a 20 minute trip turning into an hour long one because instead of driving on the freeway you drive over the mountain. I probably could have fallen asleep except that he was blaring his Trans Siberian Orchestra CD the whole way. I think my ears are still throbbing. Though I must say that they do the best rendition of Carol of the Bells I have ever heard.

The rain is due back starting tomorrow and I can already feel the chill coming on after a couple days of warmth hovering around 50 degrees. I can't wait for it to snow and I think we may see some white before Christmas, at least I hope so. Tomorrow I will post a picture of a fully trimmed tree for your approval. ~Night!

Saturday, December 11, 2004

because I am in a weird mood....

Past forgot

i have remembered how to forget what has come before,

the darkness and the light that shaded the space,

the anger and the hope that filled it,

the shattered soul that emerged today begining void of past

and free to become on its own.

lost behind is a frozen place that i was afraid to see,

and a heart that was blind to all but what it wanted to hide.

i have forgotten the wet grass between bare toes

and the lips kissed by rain,

i have tucked away the sorrow as the sun came from behind the clouds

and ruined a fragile moment with its intrusion,

i have closed the door on promises made and broken in the same breath,

on plans failed before they could be made.

i have remembered what it means to be naive,

the ease that comes with not knowing,

how you don't have to hurt over something that never touched you.

i have remembered how to forget,

i just haven't found it within me to act on the memory.

JM (C) 2003

Friday, December 10, 2004

friday feast


Make up a word and give us its definition.

Shuckydarn: Adj. used to describe something unlikely or unbelievable.


What is currently your favorite song?

Right now I am repeating Holiday Road by Lindsey Buckingham & All I want for Christmas is you by Mariah Carey. They are two of my favorite Holiday songs.


What's at the top of your Christmas wish list this year?

See list in previous entry.

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Name a scent that reminds you of someone special in your life.

Sung whenever I smell that I think of my Mommy. When I was younger and borrowed her clothes they always smelled like Sung.


Who is someone on television that you feel probably shouldn't be, and why?

Oh I hafta think about this one....ummm....Oh Ok the chick who plays Gwen on Passions. She drives me nuts! Of course to be fair so does half of the cast. Oh and the new Billy on Days.

I am still trying to figure out the whole breaking down of an audio file to copy it onto multiple disks, I haven't had any luck. Does anyone know of a web forumn that may help?

This weekend I am hoping to round up all the kids to record them singing Christmas Carols so I can make CD's as gift, but getting them all together really is a feat to be accomplished. Wish me luck on that front, K?

Thursday, December 09, 2004

My wishlist

K so here is my Christmas wish list. I am always getting asked what I want for Christmas so I decided to list the things that I really want.

1. a AA Battery charger, for my Camera, I go through tons of batteries using that thing!

2. Buffy Season 7 (I also need season 2,4,5,& 6)

3. This specific DVD recorder to replace the one that would replace the one my dad took apart and was unable to get back together again.

4. The book "A girl and 5 brave horses" though I have never been able to find a copy myself. It is the Autobigraphy of Sonora Webster, the lady the movie "Wild Hearts Can't Be Broken" was based on.

5. Camcorder

6. Digital pad and pen

7. a Nuetral toned poncho Chenielle preferably

8. Desk Chair

9. Kodak EASYSHARE DX7590 Zoom Digital Camera

10. Skin so Soft body wash I love the smell of this stuff!

11. Rachel Hale anything, well any of her cat stuff, she is an amazing animal photographer!

12. I am also a big Happy Bunny fan and like just about any of that stuff ( I am a big kid I know)

You can also find my Amazon wishlist on the right, I devour books so they are always welcom! ;)

Well that is about it. On another note, is my page Christmasy enough? Gnight!


K here are a couple views of our lights, whaddya think? The rain looks a bit like snow because of the camera flash. Those a great big lit up presents and a little train on the lawn.  Posted by Hello
This one is facing the other direction but it doesn't go all the way to the right. Posted by Hello

Wednesday, December 08, 2004

I don't like Grinches very much

I have been doing Christmas Cards all day. I am still not done. Maybe halfway. Most of the time is spent tracking down addresses. When my Laptop crashed I lost my Palm too. So while doing Christmas Cards I am trying to re-enter all my Palm info as well. I have a huge family and that is a fair daunting task.

I was reading Sheila and she was talking about those people who fail to exude the Christmas Spirit. And I got to thinking that so far I have yet to experiance one of the Grinches this year. And then I thought how fortunate that made me. But then I thought again and realized that the real reason wasn't fortune at all, it was because I haven't done any Christmas Shopping yet. Now I am filled with dread at the prospect of going out to look for gifts because it will ruin my Grinchless season. I wish I could just shop online but all that Shipping and Handling really does add up.

I'm don't run away!

HeeHee I am sitting here at my new computer. I am online again, I was jonesen hard. It just isn't the same using someone else's computer for a couple minutes here and there. I gotta get used to a totally different keyboard now though, but hey it could be way worse I suppose. I just have to keep checking my spelling for extra keystrokes.

I have been sick for the past several days as I mentioned in the post that Blogger somehow deleted on me. A great big ol' miss-mesh of ickies! I had being sick, I become the biggest whiner known to man and I never have the medicine on hand that I think I want to have. If I have a cough I have sinus medicine and vice versa. Then I have suddenly been battling fierce bouts of leg cramps every night. No clue why but they are really intense. I have done the salt tablet thing and the banana before bed thing. I have been taking HOT baths before bed and have been drinking about 30 glasses of water a day, which of course means I am pissin like a racehorse every 20 minutes. TMI I know.

So now I have the new machine I have to go through and install my programs and try and figure out which disks have which documents on them. That will be a bit of a chore. I also have been out taking pictures and will post how pretty our house is all decorated and sparkly!

On another note I have a question maybe someone can answer for me. I am burning my Dad some audio books for Christmas and have hit a snag; they are too long to put on one CD. Does anyone know how to break up a single audio file into several smaller ones? He wants Harry Potter 5 on CD and I managed to download it but I can't figure out how to get it onto more than one CD so he can play them while he is driving. Any help would be greatly appreciated!

Well now I am off to go catch up reading everyone's pages! G-night!

Friday, December 03, 2004

friday feast


Tell about a toy you remember from your childhood.

I had a little stuffed pig I called piggy it was small maybe as tall as a barbie doll and it had a bell in its belly that rung when you shook him. Once he began to fall apart from being played with so much my dad took and put it away in my moms hope chest along with my blankie, He is still there along with my middle sisters odie doll and my oldest sisters pilsbury dough boy doll. He saved our most favorite things for us.


If you could make one thing in the world absolutely free for everyone, what would it be?

a home, someplace to make a future in, some simple place to make a hom in.


Approximately how many times per day do you think about your significant other?

I don't have one of those

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Name something you believe in 100%.

The power of words. Words can turn things on a dime, they can make a friend an enemy and vice versa, They can bring hope or doubt, love or hate, respect or indifference. And for those writing them they give a blessed release of emotion.


List 3 things you did this year that you would consider a "good deed."

I cannot do it. I don't live my life that way; counting the good and bad deeds, I just try to do right by the moment and if I make a mistake here or there I figur eI make up for it all in the end.