Monday, January 31, 2005

damn photo publisher

I planned on posting a picture I found recently but Hello! is being a pain in the butt! So I will try that again tomarrow.
I have been bored out of my mind lately. I was not designed to sit at home all day. My mind is whirrling so fast from inactivity that I can't keep up with it long enough to even get some good writing done. I think that that is what frustrates me the most, the inability to write a cohesive grouping of words just makes me insane, or is it sane? They do say that you have to be insane to write, I think that is a load of crap, I think it takes a special kind of sanity to express without the emotion that comes from voice. Hmph I just wish I could get back the mojo I had before the laptop crashed. Oh and it would be awfully nice to get a job.

Saturday, January 29, 2005

Saturday Drive

I got up late again this morning, but it is Saturday so that's OK. I had to run some errands for my sister and mom so I took off around noon and when I got done doing what I needed to I decided to go for a drive. It was real windy and overcast for most of the time but I did get a few good pictures. I posted them on my photoblog . Check 'em out if your interested. I got a few nice ones of some of our gorgeous old buildings here in Grove. I drove up to the old swimming hole at Dorena Lake and was surprised at how low the water was. It always amazes me when I see the lakes in the winter the differance between that and Summer. I might see about taking a drive towards Cottage Grove Lake tomarrow and seeing where the waterline is. It's fun to walk the lake bed and see what you can find. All the things people drop in the water when the level is high. You find more fishing tackle then anything though.

I drug out a bunch of old photos today and plan to spend a couple hours tomarrow scanning and organizing them. The only problem with doing that is I always end up losing track of time and going at it all day. How obvious is it that I love pictures?

Friday, January 28, 2005

My Stuff

I am sitting here eating leftover spaggetti for brunch, and watching the rain come down outside. It is really peaceful right up until my old busy body neighbor ruins it yelling at her poor cat who dared to step foot off of her property. I just got up to take out my dishes and came back to see a nice wind storm outside (my computer sits next to my bedroom window) I love wind storms. The way doors howl and chimes scream over being thrown about.

I slept in until eleven this morning. Yeah just call me lazy ass. I would have gotten uo earlier but I fell into a trap. I have a thing for corny and shlocky B grade horror movies and if I start watching one I am stuck with it until it is over. Last night it was Prom Night starting at 2 am. It cracked my up just like it does everytime I see it.

Anyway here is something I snagged from someone and saved for when I had nothing else to post: MY STUFF

Grooming Products

Shampoo: Aussie Mega

Moisturizer: Maximum Moisture

Cologne: My favorite ever was called California but they quit making it

Razor : Venus

Toothpaste: Crest Vivid White


Cell phone : Nokia 6610

Computer : Dell Dimension 3000 and a Sotec Laptop

Television: Symphonic Flat screen

Stereo: I use my computer as a stereo


Sheets: Standard cotten with moons and stars

Coffee-maker: I don't do coffee

Car: 2001 Hyndai Sonata

Stationery: plain ol notepads work for me


Bottled water: There's a difference?

Coffee: like I go

Vodka: Smirnoff

Beer: I don't really do beer either


Jeans : Levi's 501, a classic is a classic

T-shirt : does it really matter?

Briefcase or tote: BIG ASS purse

Sneakers: I dunno and I can't find 'em to check

Watch: It's called a cell phone

Favorite Places

Home, Anywhere at home

Necessary Extravagance

good bubble bath, hardcover books for my book shelf, and really good candles

Thursday, January 27, 2005

Friday Feast

This poor tree just looks stupid, don'tcha think?


Appetizer - If you could have a free subscription to any magazine, which one would you like to have?
I am an Entertainment Weekly girl. I also like In Style and Movieline.

Soup - If you were to suddenly become famous, what would you choose as your stage name?
YO MAMA...naw how about lil Vern? My family will get that one.

Salad - What ingredients make an awesome salad? Dressing? Croutons?
Lettuce, Tomatoes, Cucumber, frozen peas, cottage Cheese and Ranch dressing, a few croutons are good.

Main Course - What do you like most about your current job?
I guess the freedom? Ha Ha! I am not working right now, but looking hard.

Dessert - Who is your favorite instrumental musician (not a singer)? I don't really have one. During Christmas time I listen to the Trans Siberian Orchestra, but they are starting to have guest singers now.

Wednesday, January 26, 2005

A Long Day...

...and a Laughter Filled Night

First and foremost thank you for everyones comments, they are nice and I am not quite so grumpy anymore. Thanks for your concern.

I spent most of the day at a couples house cleaning up their old computer and setting up their new one as well as installing a ton of software and showing them how to use it. The chair I sat in was VERY uncomfortable for a tall person, so I am very achey now. Then I came back to Cottage Grove and ran all my so exciting errands. Checked the P.O. box, got gas, bought cat food, and did my banking. Ohh fun! Came home and cleaned the kitchen. Finally got online to see what was up in my email and webpages. Discovered that the last post I made on my Family page, which was entitled "Lets play Remember when..." had several responses. So I have sat here playing tag with my Aunts and cousins etc. seeing who can post the funniest memory! This is what I set up this page for, I am having a blast! Here is an example of a post:

Oh no now my belly hurts from laughing, especially at Billy. Same camping trip you remember how Erica Pat Bill and Mel rowed across the lake and couldn't get back? I remember Grampa sitting in his lawn chair with the binocculars chuckling (you know how he chuckled) at them! We were watching a video of that campout a little while ago. It was really weird to see everyone has changed so much, as referance Megan looked like she was between one and two years old. Erica nad Beckie were wearing neon outfits and Julie still had her really thick glasses.
Hey Marie remember New Years and the fabulous dancing and puking duo? HEHEHEHE!
Lynn and Uncle Mike what do you suppose was in that 7 layer dip anyway?
Don't feel bad Aunt Deb Lynn puts allspice on eggs and makes green hashbrowns.
Aunt Steph remember going to go kick some butt in a leg cast with a towel on your head?
I didn't experiance it but I remember Erica and Mel telling about listening to Wilson Phillips the whole way to the big camp out with Uncle Tom.
OK Beckie Erica just told me to tell you that the next time you need to run from the police jump off a bridge into the blackberry bushes.
All for now, this is a blast guys, keep it coming!
I love nostalgia. I am a firm believer that good memories can heal the wicked. Maybe there is hope for me yet!

Tuesday, January 25, 2005

forgiveness and trolls

I think I made it sound like I am not a forgiving person in the previous post. But I am. It's just a couple of really big things I have had a hard time letting go of. There were a couple HUGE events in my life, mostly related to each other that left me a little weary of forgiveness. I opened myself up to my cousin and she burned me even though I was completely supportive of her, I supported her financially and emotionally for months. And in the end she stole from me, caused me to loose my home, ruined my credit, and spread lies about me to other members of my family. She became this huge rock between me and a lot of the rest of my family. It took my Grandmothers death to allow that hurt to loosen up a little with in me. It's still there, but now I can live with it. Most any other thing I can forgive, but smacking someone in the face who has held you up and taken you in, that was a little harder to accept for me.

I am all bummed out about some of my favorite bloggers considering walking away from their blogs. And even more bummed about trolls who leave nasty comments on blogs just to be nasty. And what is up with them doing it anonymously? To me that seems a little chicken shit. If you are gonna say something, especially something mean spirited and hurtful, you should leave your name. Makes me wonder why they have to hide behind anonymity. Probably because they are throwing stones at glass houses. Or because they can't take what they dole out themselves. Just irks me.

Monday, January 24, 2005

doling out advice

Remember my family debacle earlier this week? Well it really got to my cousin. I am really not one for advice but as she really got upset and I was the one she was talking to about it I felt like I needed to say something so this is what I said, what I want to know from you is, did I take the easy way out?
The past is a funny thing, it's always there and it can't be changed, but we can learn from it and we can make sure that our mistakes were not in vain. SO I say don't set it aside and don't forget, but forgiving is OK and moving on is even better.
I would like to believe that it is that easy but I don't want to be naive either. I kinda feel like a fraud for saying what I wish were feasable insted of what may be feasable, for me at least. It takes a LOT for me to forgive, I tend to latch onto things. You know get physically attatched to my anger. So much so that it feels like I am tossing a bit of myself into the trash to let it go. It isn't a part of me that I am awfully proud of but at least I can admit to it. And at least I don't rage at people. But is it wrong to tell someone what you think they want to hear rather than the truth, if the truth is a bit ugly?

Sunday, January 23, 2005

Movies Movie Movies

Ok so I am bored and thought I would tell ya what movies graced my screen this weekend. I never got to Forgotten but I am sure I will find time sometime this week to watch it.
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Great movie especially if you are a Cole Hauser fan, which I have been every since he playedImage Hosted by The Image HostingBenny in Dazed and Confused though it seemed a bit short and predictable at times. I could forgive that because of the other times when what you thought would happen didn't happen after all.

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Ok this was all that I expected it to be...very question is this, why does having short hair make you bad ass? Why is that the first thing woman do in movies to make themselves all ass kicky? Her shorter haircut looked terrible to me!

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Image Hosted by The Image HostingChris Evans, that is all I have to say! Isn't he just edible? Ok eye candy aside, this was a far better movie then I thought it would be. I origonally saw it at the theater and was impressed then. But upon a second viewing it really was a good movie about a guy who answers his cell phone and gets pulled into a kidnapping plot. Did I mention Chris Evans? TeeHee!

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I watched the new Stephen King movie Riding the Bullet tonight on USA. I didn't really like it. It was really shifty, but for what seemed like no reason. But it did have Jonathan Jackson and David Arquette in it which made me think it might be good if a little off the beaten path. It seemed a little thrown together I think. I dunno, I am not to inclined to ever watch it again. Anyway Ta Ta fer Now!

Stolen from Christine

Inside the Actor's Studio

At the end of each interview, James Lipton, the host, asks each of his guests the following list of questions.

What is your favorite word? Shnazzay
What is your least favorite word? Wad (See that DAD?)
What turns you on? Real laughter and intelligence in the same person
What turns you off? Hypocrisy and Selfishness
What sound or noise do you love? Rain falling on a tin roof
What sound or noise do you hate? High pitched screams ala Mariah Carey
What is your favorite curse word? Bee-Otch
What profession other than yours would you like to attempt? If I could do anything it would be writing or web design
What profession would you never like to attempt under any circumstances? Accounting, I am so not a numbers person.
If heaven exists, what would you like to hear God say when you arrived at the Pearly Gates? That’s OK I love you anyway.

Heh I am watching Extreme Makeover Home Edition and tearing up. I am such a sap! Now I need to go chase the feline out of the laundry so I can fold it up. I hate folding laundry almost as much as I hate moping the floor, it is BORING! Oh well it needs to be done, see ya later.

Saturday, January 22, 2005

it can be a bitch; time

time ripples across skin...

...eroding youth...'s easy to think that it can't touch you...

...until you see that it has...

...all that is left to do is...


Heh, getting older sucks. I feel really old today for some reason. Like I didn't get enough done yet and time is running short. Maybe I slept wrong. I dunno.

Friday, January 21, 2005

Blood and married into....

When you were 5 did you really understand the difference? I sure as heck didn't. But I should back up for a second. I have a huge family. My Grandma had 12 kids who each married and had children of their own. I am the youngest in my family so most of my "blood" Aunts and Uncles were married before I was born or while I was very young. So I grew up knowing that those people who had married into the family were my aunts or uncles and nothing more. I couldn't censor how I grew attatched to them.
A couple of these in-laws have since sepersted from their spouses but I still consider them my Aunts and Uncles. Their feelings changed mine did not.
Anyway I started a group webpage for my family and friends to talk to one another and share photos and what not. Then I invited everyone to come by and participate. I invited my Uncle T and his new wife D as well as his ex, my AUNT D. Well they both accepted the invite and started making comments. Here is were I should explain that he absolutely hates her for no good reason except that he is a very angry man, who has a deep and absolute temper. (To be fair, that is the only reason that I am aware of) Anyway My Aunt makes her first comment on the web page and in her comment she says:

Thanks for including me! I am having trouble trying to figure out how to read the messages and how to jump in. Plus, (I really don't want to piss off your Uncle T.) But, it's been soooooo long since I have talked to some of you. I really love reading from all of you.
My reply was this:

Of course we would include you. I don't really understand how that would bother Uncle T. I love you as my Aunt, that won't change, just like I love him and that won't change (Love you Uncle T).
His reply was this:

I think you all need to keep me out of this shit, you want to talk to her go ahead but do not make me your topic of conversation.
I mean it.This is done
right now !
This was unacceptable for me. One he had no right to come and cuss me out. And two I didn't say anything remotely uncomplimentary regarding him. I actually thought I said some really nice things. This would all seem really minor if not for the past several years. Everytime someone tries to include her or even speaks her name he BLOWS up and threatens to disown people. Going off on me on my own website was a final straw. I don't like being told how and who to talk to. The whole thing just had me furious last night.

For those of you who commented, don't give me too much credit, I think I slept on it more because I was unable to think straight then because of my good intentions. Thanks though.

But on to other things's feast time again:

Appetizer - What is one quality you really admire about yourself?

I am able to stand up for my self and say what I mean with out alienating people.

Soup - What kind of shampoo and conditioner do you use?

Right now Aussie Mega. I love the smell!

Salad - Describe your favorite movie scene. You know, the one that just gets to you every time you watch it.

In Wild Hearts Can't Be Broken when Sonora finds the letters he sent her but she never recieved. I love that part. But I love the part where she does her first blind jump better.

Main Course - If you were a veggie, which one would you be, and why?
Uh Corn, because it tastes good. ;)

Dessert - If you could take a weekend trip within 100 miles of your current residence, where would you like to go?
Probably Astoria, It is really pretty there and I have had a thing for it every since I saw the Goonies for the first time.

Thursday, January 20, 2005 do I hafta?

I am really pissed at my Uncle right now! But I am not going to go into details until tomarrow, cuz my throat hurts and because of him I now have a nasty headache. Also by tomarrow I may not be so angry and won't say something I regret. Night all.

Wednesday, January 19, 2005

Stupid Browser *updated*

Well Blogger is back to normal or at least as normal as it ever gets. Turns out my bigger problem is something to do with my MSN browser. It's displaying everything HUGE. I have checked and re-checked my resolution settings. When I go in through Mozilla everything is fine but I am not really set up to use Mozilla. All my bookmarks and everything are set up in the MSN browser. It is super irritating!

Anyhoo, I officially apply for the job tomorrow with some really great references from people who already work there. It isn't a perfect match for my skill set but I am confident that I can do the job easily. So I will let ya'll know what becomes of it.

It is pretty warm around here in the 50's and 60's and I hate it. I want Winter back, I want snow, I want to be able to wear thermal socks by the fireplace. Hrmph!

Well I am off to try and figure out this browser issue, wish me luck.

Well I got it fixed. The problem was fixed when I restored my computer to a previous setting. That of course means theat either Mozilla or shockwave caused it because those were the only new installations and I didn't have any corrupt files or viruses. I am so happy to get it fixed, now I can go read my blogroll!

Tuesday, January 18, 2005

what the F#$%

What is up with blogger being so freaking spastic? Is anyone else having issues right now?!!!

Damn Restrictions!

From Random Acts of Journaling

You are given a gift of 1 million dollars (kindly adjust for currency in your location). There are some restrictions on how you can spend some of the money, as follows:

$100,000 must be donated to charity. What charities will you support?

The Humane Society. I am an animal lover and it is a charity that tends to be overlooked in my area.

$100,000 must be given to one person that you know. To whom do you give it? What would you expect him/her to do with it? Would you put any restrictions on its use? Would it make a difference if you could make the donation anonymously?
My parents would recieve this, I would restrict it to be spent on something frivalous, no bills no practical possesions, strictly fun and selfish things that they would otherwise never buy.

$100,000 must be given to someone who has recently been in the news. Who gets it? Why?

Oh this one is hard. I suppose I would give it to the tsunami victoms, I know that that is more than one person and may even be considered a charity but I haven't seen to many deserving individuals on MY news.

$100,000 must be spent on a public beautification project. You can build a park, commission artwork, etc. What do you do, and where do you do it?

I think I would put it towards cleaning up the parks and banks that run along the part of the Willamette river that meanders through Cottage Grove.

$100,000 must be spent on a memorial to someone/something that you have loved and lost. What form does the memorial take? Who is it for?

I would create an art scholership in the name of my Grandmother, who we lost last Fall and whom was an amazing artist.

$50,000 must be spent studying something you have not formally studied. What will you study?

Music. I would love to be trained to play the accoustic guitar, I have tried to teach myself but am not doing so great, I want to have this skill to help merge my writing with music.

$50,000 must be spent establishing a scholarship. What's it for and who will you name it for? Oh I didn't see this when I answered the other question. So does that mean I can add this $50,000 to the other $100,000?

$50,000 must be given away in a contest. What kind of contest do you hold?

Writing of course, only I get to be the judge!

$200,000 must be spent doing as many things as you can on your "lifetime to do list." Always wanted to see Alaska? Take a boat trip on the Rhine? What things would you do first?
Go to Scotland. And own a home.

That leaves you with $150,000 of mad money. If the rules say you can't spend that money on things that might be termed "practical," what do you buy on your spending spree?

a really nice car, a new entertainment system, a huge kitty condo! and have my mothers home re-designed however she would like and finance my dad's yearly trip into the hills to chase critters. Buy my sister a horse and board it for her and buy my other sister an entire set of home furnishings that only SHE picked out.

I think that probably costs more than that, but hey I was going for the gusto!

Monday, January 17, 2005

I am obviously addicted

I never should have started with the magnetic poetry because now I have spent at least an hour and a half today playing around there. See here are a couple of them:

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Not only that but I dug out my own sets and played with them while watching movies. Needless to say I didn't pay too much attention to the movies, good thing I saw them before (the Village and Troy) but I did miss some good eyecandy dangit. For those of you who have been playing also, the words change every 24 hours, so you get new stuff to work with.

In other news, you should go tell my my Sissy to feel better, she had to go to the emergency room twice since Friday.

Sunday, January 16, 2005

Poetry in Motion Post

One of my magnet poems. I won a poetry contest once and my prize was a poetry in motion magnetic poetry kit, it can be addicting. Here is a link to where you can create your own poems and enter them to win online. Have Fun!

Saturday, January 15, 2005

Cheese anyone?

I just discovered that my cat is addicted to cheese. I discovered this as I tried to have a bit of cheese for a snack this afternoon. I left it on my desk while I went to do something in another room and got distracted. When I came back a while later the cheese was gone. I thought I had eaten it and forgotten. Well I just found her stash underneath the blanket in her bed. Most had been eaten but she was saving a good solid bit of it for later. When I picked it up she jumped up into her bed, looked at me and whined until I put it back down, then she sat on it. How nice. This could be a serious issue for me as dairy products make a certain feline a bit gassy I wonder if I should send her to live with Chicken I am sure there is plenty O' cheese there! *wink wink* Naw I love my furkid, even if she does attack my tootsies during the best dreams and insist on placing her fuzzy little butt smack dab between my face and the book I am trying to read. I just may need to invest in a good gas mask.

Gender Genie?

I found this on a couple different blogs. It's supposed to be able to tell if you are male or female based upon a sample of your text. It was wrong the first time but right the second. I didn't go for a tie breaker though. So was it right for you?

Friday, January 14, 2005

I'm sickly

Being sick sucks! I have a sore throught and I am headachy. I spent one evening inside a closed up space and I get sick. Damnit! I am gonna go dose some Nyquil and try to sleep now. Have a nice Friday night.

Thursday, January 13, 2005

friday feast and odds and ends

Friday Feast time lads and lasses!

Appetizer - If you could have a free subscription to any online service, which would you like to have?

Oh well lets see...I dunno...I guess some sort of media host, so I could post video. I dunno it would be nice to be a premium member of Haloscan so I can always see my comments.

Soup - Describe your bathroom (furnishings, colors, etc.).

SMALLLLLLL Black white and red. With a sink toilet and shower/bath with sliding doors. The bath isn't very big, I have to sit totally upright (I'm 6 ft) but the shower head has amazing pressure and is about a half foot over my head.

Salad - What does the shape of a triangle make you think of?

yield...but I don't like yielding...I say get the heck outta my way I wanna go first! ;)

Main Course - Name 3 things or activities that you consider to be luxuries.

eating at fancy restaurants, vacations to far away places, and never worrying about if your bills are paid.

Dessert - What was the last really great movie you watched?

Well I see a LOT of movies, As far as really good though...I suppose I really enjoyed Wimbledon, I am a Paul Bettany fan, and I thought it was funny and well written. I liked Friday Night Lights too. Other than that I have pretty much only seen horror movies at the theater lately.


Dana is home and extraordinarily skinny, but she is on her way to being her old self. She wants to play with the 7 month old puppy but she seems a little disinterested in the new pups. That may just be because she still doesn't feel very good though.

I found my sketch book today! My Grandma taught me how to draw when I was little. My Dad is an amazing cartoonist too. But I find that I like to draw faces most. Anyway this sketch book in particular is the one where I was drawing characters and clothing from my book. I am thinking twiddling around in that for a while might get me back into writing in the book. Hopefully anyway.

Got a good lead on a nice job so cross your fingers for me OK? Thanks! I might find a little more out tomarrow, I want it really bad.

Wednesday, January 12, 2005

update and thoughts

Well Dana is out of surgery and is improving. She will hopefully be able to come home tomarrow. My sister wanted me to thank everyone for their kind thoughts, so thank you all.

With that said, I thought I would post my journal entry from this morning, because it feels appropriate:

where yesterday sits in my belly i ache a little. i am not sure why or where the hurt grew from but I hold it there and it gives me the illusion of being full. the lie is that it's enough to feed my hungering soul with memories rather than starving it with now. because now is empty and alone and i can't fathom why a smile resides on my lips. it's unfair to crave so much when what i want is so far from my hands. yet that ache still haunts my belly with a desire to remain undone.

I find that I am floating around on a miss mesh of something that I don't know how to describe. From moment to moment I change my mind about what I want to do with myself. And nothing appeals for more than a a little while. Maybe tomarrow I will be in a better mood. Just maybe.

Further Update on Dana

She is stable enough for surgery. She saw her mommy this mornign and tried real hard to get up and greet her. She wil have surgery at 2:00, which is in about an hour. I am sure everything will be alright. She is a really well behaved and loving dog. Poor thing. Thank you all for your well wishes, I have passed them on to my sister and she appreciates them very much. Hopefully we will know more tonight. Is it obvious that our pets are like our children? As a matter of fact some of the children think the pets are treated better. ;)

Tuesday, January 11, 2005

these things are terrible *updated*

I told you all about my sisters dog, Dana, and how she had her pups. Well we thought that she only had 7 pups, and I had said that I found that odd because of how big she was and that she had so many more the last time.

Well last night she started to sieze and my sister had to take her to the vet. Apparently she didn't deliver all of the pups and one or more died inside her. And now she is being poisoned by them. They have given her a 40% chance to make it. She is a really good dog and my sister is a mess. I am really hoping that she'll pull through and get back home to take care of her babies soon.

Aparently there were no dead pups inside her after all. Turns out she pushed so hard during delivery that she ruptured her uterus. They are still waiting for her to stabilize so they can take her into surgery.

Monday, January 10, 2005

Procrastination and Boredom...whatta pair!

What sucks about getting a new cell phone? Transferring all of your numbers, re-programing your calander and telling everyone you know about the new number. What a pain in the toooshay! Not only that but I still haven't re-entered everything in my Palm. I think it will take forever to get both done...but only because I will keep putting it off. I am such a lazy ass.

Still no snow damnit! I am BORED. there isn't anything to do. I have been playing with pictures and writing for two days straight. I need something else to do but there isn't anything else to do! Blagh!

Saturday, January 08, 2005

ask and ye shall recieve

I had just finished leaving a comment on Smiley's blog last night about him sending some of his tons of snow my way, when I get a call from my sister to tell me to look out the window. Yup it was snowing. So thanks Smiley! I don't know how ya did it but thanks! Oh and do you think you could send more it wasn't a whole lot and it is gone already? My Gramma who is only 2 and a half hours away has like 8 inches. *pout* How is that fair? I am like a big 5 year old when it comes to snow.

Thursday, January 06, 2005

Friday Feast, Pup Update and Cats on Crack...Er ...Flea killer?

*Friday Feast*
Appetizer - Have you been sick yet this winter? If so, what did you come down with?
Not really a couple sniffles but no major knock me off my feet, why oh why sicknesses. Of course now that I said that I am gonna get the flu tomarrow.

Soup - What colors dominate your closet?
Blacks, Blues and Reds, though of them all blue is the color that looks best on me

Salad - How would you describe your personal "comfort zone"?
My bedroom with an open window, loads of candles, a really good book, my cat, my sobakowa pillows, and my down and chenille blankets. That is my perfection!

Main Course - On which reality show would you really like to be a contestant?
I suppose Big Brother, I can work a person over with words very well. Thats the benefit of being the youngest of 3 girls.

Dessert - Which holiday would you consider to be your favorite?
Christmas hands down. To me Christmas is a holiday that lasts a month, with all the decorations and whatnot and you can carry it with you longer

Ok so Dana had her puppies. It looks like she is only going to have 7 which is odd because she was so huge, but these pups are a lot bigger than the last litter so that probably explains it.

My cat is usually flea free, and she stays indoors so it usually doesn't become a problem. Well I was playing with my sisters dogs and they have a couple fleas because they are outdoor animals and you can hardly ever get rid of them all. Anyway I must have brought a couple home after petting the dogs (icky I know) and she ended up with a couple on her. I put the Frontline on her at the nape of her neck like you are supposed to so she can't like it off. But apparently she is more flexible than I thought because she kept licking at it. It was kinda funny; lick lick GAG lick lick GAG, she kept going back for more, I finally had to tie a sock around her neck to keep her from licking it all off. She spent the rest of the day spazzing out, running around the house at top speed, attacking the vaccuum, and trying to climb my blinds. Cracked my up, but next time I will put the sock on right away!
Well I think I am done with the layout for the PhotoBlog and have posted more photos. I appreiciate the feedback I have already gotten and would welcome any more that might come my way.

My Photo Blog

I spent all day working on setting up my photoblog so if anyone wants to give it a gander they are welcome to. I haven't got too many pictures up yet but the ones I do have up I am happy with, I took them today on my way home from the grocery store. I am still tinkering with the template, trying to get everything just so. I would love feedback good or bad both for the photos and for the layout. Thanks A bunch!

Tuesday, January 04, 2005

Small Pleasures

Snowflakes kissing fingertips

Cats purring as I drift to dream

A good book, lit by candle with the music of the rain

Tears brought by sappy commercials

Nostalgia sparking at the first notes of an old song

Waking rested

Warm Sheets and an open window

A blank sheet of paper awaiting my touch

Swimming at night

Cool grass at my back and watching the stars

Two AM talks about nothing at all


Playing in mud puddles

Towels out of the dryer

A child's laughter


Chenielle Socks

Hot Chocolate and Snow Picnics

The big cushy heated armchair in my living room

Long road trips with GOOD music

Ice water on an August afternoon

My Blog

Soul Quiz

Ok for several years now I have kept a book full of questions, some deeper than others, some outright silly. I call the questions my great big Soul Quiz and I thought I would post one of the questions here now and again and see what you all have to say. So here is the first one:

What would the title your Autobiography be?

My Answer: Surviving My Mind; Getting Lost in the Shadows and Searching for the Sun

Please share your answers in the Comments, Thanks! And Have fun with it!

Musical Honesty

Found here


1. Open up the music player on your computer.

2. Set it to play your entire music collection.

3. Hit the "shuffle" command.

4. Tell us the title of the next ten songs that show up (with their musicians), no matter how embarrassing. That's right, no skipping that Carpenters tune that will totally destroy your hip credibility. It's time for total musical honesty.

1. Eva Cassidey - Time After Time

2. Joan Jett - Cherry Bomb

3. Simple Plan - Don't Wanna think about you

4. Live - Lightning Crashes

5. Wild Orchid - At Night I Pray

6. Nena Cherry - Buffalo Stance

7. The Verve Pipe - The Freshman

8. Tigra and Bunny - The Cars that Go Boom

9. Hayley Westenra - Pie Jesu

10. Guns & Roses - Patience (acoustic Version)

OK I am not embarresed by any of those, Thank Gawd!

Monday, January 03, 2005

Taking them down.

This is the part of the holidays that I hate. Taking down the decorations. Putting away all the things that help get us into that cheery mood, can put a person into a real pissy mood right quick! Isn't it funny how it is so fun to put the lights and yard decorations up, and it doesn't really feel like work. But when you begin to disassemble your masterpiece it suddenly feels like a HUGE chore? And I haven't even started on the tree!

This was her last litter:

How'd you like to have this many babies having a bite to eat all at once? Well she still hasn't popped butI did happen upon this picture from her last litter.

Sunday, January 02, 2005

Puppies on the way

I spent the day helping my sister move into their new place. Wait that isn't true, I sat on my ass and watched while the guys moved stuff and the girls kicked back. Isn't that the way it is supposed to go? Well in any case I probably would have helped if I wasn't so freaking sore. I wake up every morning feeling like I went 12 rounds with a boxer, and said boxer thoroughly kicked my ass. They (the leg cramps) seem to be easing up a bit finally but they still suck, a lot.

My sister has two really cute boxers, a mommy and her daughter. Dana the mommy is about to be a mommy again and with them just moving she appears to be fighting going into labor because she is in a foriegn place. Does anyone know how long a dog can do that for? She is huge I swear I think she is gonna have another litter of 12, or even more. Here they are:

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That is Sienna on the Right and Dana on the left, You can't really tell how big Dana is because she is sitting, but the poor dog looks like she might expload. Dana looks petrified in this pic. I think I would too at the prospect of spitting out a bunch of babies. Sienna is only 6-7 months old and she is already taller than her mother. They are really cute dogs and they are full blooded Boxers. Anyway Just curious if anyone knew if a dog could force herself to NOT go into labor, because it appears to be what she is doing, she is a couple days over the 63 day gestation period. ????

For Kris

The Recipe for dads Macaroni Salmon Salad:

Ok first of all he cooks like you do so most of these measurements are guestimations and to taste so you might have to play with it a bit.

1 package salad Macaroni 16 oz boiled and drained to preferred tenderness

12 boiled eggs chopped

approx 3/4 cups sweet or dill pickles chopped

1/2 Cup green onions chopped (mostly the greens)

2 short stalks or 1/2 Cup celery chopped finely

3 small cans of sliced olives

1 1/2 -2 cups frozen peas

1 Large can of Salmon

2-4 cups of Mayo, to desired consistency

approx 1/4 Cup Mustard

Mix thoroughly and allow to combine in the refridgerator. Best if served after 24-48 hours.


JaG's desktop Game

Ok here ya go JaG This is my current desktop, though it changes every other day.

Saturday, January 01, 2005

Answers to the The Song meme-ory game

1. Rock on by Micheal Damian (un-guessed)

2. Kill Myself by Tim McGraw (un-guessed)

3. Homewrecker by Gretchen Wilson (un-guessed)

4. Barely Breathing by Dunkan Sheik (un-guessed)

5. Here for the Party by Gretchen Wilson guessed by MrsLile

6. He wasn't by Avril Lavigne (un-guessed)

7. Wild Thing by Tone Loc guessed by Texas Biscuit

8. Not Tonight by Lil' Kim & Friends (un-guessed)

9. On the roof again by Eve 6 (un-guessed)

10. Can't Take it Back by Amanda Lantona (un-guessed)

11. Little Pink Houses by John Mellencamp (un-guessed)

12. Son of a Preacher Man by Aretha Franklin (un-guessed)

13. Drift Away by Uncle Kracker (un-guessed)

14. Somebody Help Me by Full Blown Rose (un-guessed)

15. Echo by Trapt (un-guessed)

16. Holla back Girl by Gwen Stefani (un-guessed)

17. Cumbersome by Seven Mary Three (un-guessed)

18. Hold On by Bif Naked (un-guessed)

19. Walking in Memphis by Marc Cohn guessed by Texas Biscuit

20. When Doves Cry by Prince guessed by JaG

21. Holy Water by Big and Rich (un-guessed)

22. Shot in the Dark by Ozzy Osborne (un-guessed)

23. Close my eyes forever by Lita Ford and Ozzy Osborne guessed by .:A:.

24. Eye of the Tiger by Surviver guessed by Jenny

25. Heaven by Live guessed by JaG


Stolen from someones page so long ago that I forgot which page it was...sorry if it was you...lemme know.

1. YOUR PORN STAR NAME (Name of first pet / First street you lived on): Fredrick Court Nikki

2. YOUR MOVIE STAR NAME (Name of your favorite snack food / Grandfather's first name): Mandarin Roy

3. YOUR FASHION DESIGNER NAME (First word you see on your left / Favorite restaurant): Friskies G. Willickers

4. EXOTIC FOREIGNER ALIAS (Favorite Spice / Last Foreign Vacation Spot): Star Anis Nowhere

5. SOCIALITE ALIAS (Silliest Childhood Nickname / Town Where You First Partied): Jcaca Newport

6. "FLY Girl" ALIAS (a la J. Lo) (First Initial / First Two or Three Letters of your Last Name): J Mit

7. ICON ALIAS (Something Sweet Within Sight / Any Liquid in Your Kitchen): Buckeye TurkeyJuice

8. DETECTIVE ALIAS (Favorite Baby Animal / Where You Went to High School): Kitty Grove

9. BARFLY ALIAS (Last Snack Food You Ate / Your Favorite Alcoholic Drink): Ruffle Lemondrop

10. SOAP OPERA ALIAS (Middle Name / Street Where You Live): Lynn Clark

11. ROCK STAR ALIAS (Favorite Candy / Last Name Of Favorite Musician): Reeses Thomas

Wow I have so many aliases now, I'll never have to check in to a motel with the same one twice. As I never check in to motels any way!

So this is 2005 huh?

I didn't do much last night, I was still tired ( rephrase: am still tired) so I just watched the countdown specials, channel surfing style and kept my toes warm until I saw in the new year and then I crashed. At least I crashed as best I could with a psychotic feline thrashing about my feet everytime someone set off fireworks or shot off their guns. This morning when I called my sister she informed me that my sweet and innocent niece had the police called on her. Apparently they (the kids) were playing "rock tag" last night and a rock hit a neighbors house. Though it only hit the siding the neighbors still called the police on them. Leave it to B, she is always the one to get caught.

As far as the new year and how I feel about it:

The most pronounced impression I am personally taking from 2004 is that I wasted another year.

I need to get my happy butt in gear this year and make some things happen, for my own sanity. I sorta fell into a rut for the last couple of months and didn't even attept to lift myself out of it, I hope to change that this year. We'll see.