packing is bittersweet.

Packing still. Crawled under the bed to pull whatever was under there out. Found a couple old letters. One to Shurrie, talking about my relationship with Jay. Another written to Jay but never given to him about our relationship. My heart is full to the brim with moments I don't want to forget, and missing him. I truly do not believe I will ever really get past losing him...

Another wreck to add to the list...

If another wreck never touches my life I would still have been touched by too many. My niece was nearly killed the night before last and by the Grace of whoever was up there looking out for her she is still with us. She is going to have scars but she wasn't hurt too bad.
People do stupid things when they drink. I hate alcohol. Or at least I hate the people who let it poison their common sense, and in turn the people around them. Priorities get skewed and people get hurt and there is no excuse for risking a persons life, alcohol or no.
So glad she is still with us, and that no one was hurt. 7 people walked away from something that had the capacity to take all of their lives. Hope it provides the appropriate perspective to the appropriate people. Sadly, though, I truly doubt it will.

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My financial aid for school got messed up. I am not getting the normal amount. Sorta puts a HUGE kink in my intentions for this term. Wouldn't be so bad if I wasn't having to foot the bill for a move and having to start paying rent. Things always find a way to hit the pothole in the middle of the road and I am really getting tired of it. I won't let it defeat me, but I am not going to act like everything is all peachy keen either. Time to get financially creative, because I am determined to make my life more rewarding and enjoyable...if it kills me!