Bitter-Sweet

Wish I wasn't so sentimental. This packing and going somewhere new, no matter how familiar, is daunting. I don't wanna leave, this is home. I still feel close to my Mom and Jay here, surrounded by so many memories. And yet I am so excited to get to where I am going and see my sister and nieces and nephews everyday and more often. I hate being alone, and it feels like I am always alone here. I know I need and want the change but it is gonna be bitter sweet. Seems like my life has had bitter sweet as a theme for a long time...