Waiting...

I really hate waiting. I think waiting should be outlawed. I am the most impatient person. I will know about the job I interviewed for on Thursday sometime at the beginning of the week. I want to know now. That was a LONG day. I had to have my dad in Eugene by 7:30 for an MRI than had to com back home get ready for the interview, go to the interview, come home and spot clean the whole house. I slept in on Friday! Saturday I went through my boxes and boxes of makeup (I am such a slave to new makeup it's one of my big weaknesses)that took most of the day. Of course I listened to a lot of my old mp3's while I did it. That is always interesting. There is just way too much good music out there to even listen to all of it over months and years even. I have a 400+ CD collection plus hundreds and hundreds of mp3 files. I really should go through and thin it out but I am one of those people who can't stand to get rid of anything.

Then last night I went to my sisters and we played AtmosFear It is one of those games where you either kick ass or lose terribly. Well my brother in law is the type of guy who up and quits as soon as he thinks he can't win. It pisses me off, it's a game dammit! If you can't win, you can at least make it harder for other people to win. Don't whine and storm off and bum everyone out! Makes everyone want to go home to get away from the poor sport.

Today I am gonna work on my car. I have some tint strips to put on and it could use a nice bit of armour-all. I will show how pretty it looks when I am all done. Ta~

My interviews of Groove and Kunaal

Ok Groove here are your questions:


1. Who was the first celebrity you can remember being a fan of? Are you still a fan?


2. What is your greatest personal accomplishment? What effect did it have on your life?


3. If you could change any aspect of your life what would it be and why?


4. What is your biggest guilty pleasure?


5. Do you still think I should toss out my funky ol' birks?

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And Kunaal these are yours:


1. Of all the places you have lived which is your favorite and why?


2. What is your ideal future? Who do you hope to become and how is that person different than who you are now?


3. What instantly takes you back to your childhood? ( a song? a movie? etc. )


4. What is the one thing you could never give up?


5. What would you change about your everyday life? Why?

Interviewing

Got this from Sheilah my fellow Oregonian. (Though she is a transplant so she has roots elswhere also)


Here are your instructions. The first five to comment asking will be participants:

1. Leave me a comment saying “interview me.”

2. I will respond by asking you five questions.

3. You will update your blog/site with the answers to the questions.

4. You will include this explanation and an offer to interview someone else in the same post.

5. When others comment asking to be interviewed, you will ask them five questions. (Write your own questions or borrow some :o)

Here are my answers to Sheilahs questions:

1. What would be your dream job? What steps do you need to take to get to that point where you can have that job?


It is a toss up between two things that mean a lot to me...1. is animals I would love to work with animals but not as a vet. Probably in a zoo or something where I get to care for them but not put them to sleep. I am fascinated by animals and could really see my self enjoying a career working with them. But I think I am more enthralled with the idea of the 2nd option...Creating greeting cards with my own words and images. This combines 2 of my loves writing and photography. Of course I am writing a novel but we all know how hard it is to make a living as an author. As far as what steps I need to take, well I suppose I need to just do it. I need to create. This is something I have to do while doing whatever job I get but it is something I will do for the rest of my life regardless of whether or not I find a career in the field or not.

2. What would you say is your best personality trait?


I can get along with almost anyone. I am someone who tends to be the person people go to to get things off their chests and to vent, so I suppose I am a good listener. I also feel things strongly and have empathy for others. I think those are my best traits. I know I know you only asked for one, but I couldn't pick okay.

3. What would you say is your worst personality trait?


I have a NASTY and QUICK temper. it comes out hard and fast but it also dissipates as quickly as it rears it's ugly head.

4. Who has been the most positive influence in your life, and why?


Wow that is really hard to answer with only one person, so I have to say two. My parents they really have been an all supporting duo. They are still together and have always supported me and their children. Their love and support has been the foundation of who I am. And they have always believed in who I am, who I have been, and who I want to become.

5. What has been the hardest thing that you have ever had to do? How did you manage the inner strength to do it?


I used to allow myself to be a doormat for my "friends" I think the hardest thing to do was to stand up to the worst of the bunch and sever that tie. I tortured myself over that for weeks but I finally found that little bit of soul encompassing self respect inside me and said to her that friendship is a two way superhighway and I am not driving that direction anymore. I am not sure I have ever gotten over her complete absence from my life, but I couldn't allow her to hurt me anymore.

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I have another interview tomarrow. I'll fill you in after.

Just an Update

I have been so busy trying to find a job that I have been lax in reading my blogroll and posting to my own. That and been out and about with my nieces and mother. We went to the movies again yesterday and saw White Noises in the cheap seats. Now I know why they are called cheap seats. I think my ass still hurts. There was a gaggle of giggly smart aleck girls too so I was kinda distracted. But it was an OK movie, not exactly what I was expecting but there were a few really good jumpy spots. It reminded me though that Michael Keaten will always be the real Batman...oh and Mr. Mom. I liked Mr. Mom too.

Anyway the other 2 jobs didn't pan out because I need a job before they are available. So I put in about 15 applications/resumes in today. I better get one or I am gonna start thinking people don't like me so much. Heh not that I care about that too much.

I am thoroughly loving and hating this whole weightloss thing. Loving because some clothes fit better, I feel better, look better. Hating because all my good jeans and pants are too big and I am not one to work the suspenders (though my mother really had me and my sisters sport some HOT rainbow suspenders when we were kids....she'll never be forgiven for that one!) and lately even my favorite foods are not too appealing. But I will take the good with the bad in this case.

I am pretty thrilled that we have a new writing group in Grove again, the last one disbanded about a year ago. Nothing like having real human people sitting in front of you critiquing your work. We'll see if they know their stuff on Thursday. Welp I am off to read your blogs now TATA!

Another Movie Saturday

These were the clouds that greeted us at the Mall today.

I went and saw Constantine today. I thought it was a wonderful movie. It was everything all rolled into one. A super hero movie, a horror movie, a drama, an action movie and suprisingly (in my opinion) a comedy. And it definitely didn't hurt that it starred Keanu Reeves, hello tasty man! I recommend it highly.

I about messed my panties tonight on the way home from Eugene. I have terrible vision and need a new perscription for my glasses/contacts, so I am already ill at ease with driving at night. Of course tonight was either drive or spend the night at the mall. Well halfway home it suddenlystarted to pour down rain so hard that traffic slowed to a crawl and I could see exactly nothing except a blurry set of red tail lights from the guy in front of me. It is a very good thing he did not drive off the road because I was following those lights wherever they ended up going. Meanwhile my two nieces were snapping off pictures of eachother in the back seat, so the flash kept popping right behind me. I was sure we were going to end up in the ditch. Color me happy that I was wrong.

In answer to the people who have asked about the weight loss methods, more than anything it has been lots of water and just not eating as much, being more active and a supplement has helpped also. I am not big on advertising so if anyone is interested in which one is working for me, drop me an email and I will tell you privately. I do have to say that I am sure the supplement is making a BIG difference. Even if it is just in my own head.

My oh so exciting day and friday feast

Ugg! I still haven't heard about either of the jobs. Though I think perhaps the department store one is a good prospect. I suppose I will know when I know. Except I need to know within 2 weeks, cuz that is when the cash flow runs out. That is when the billsw go unpaid if I go unpaid. I don't even want to think about it.

Today I drove down to Drain to help a couple of friends with their computer again. It's a pretty drive and I took a bunch of pictures to, from and at the river after. I have posted some of them on my photoblog so check em out if you like. I spent about an hour watching this group of geese do everything in perfect formation. It was a good ol' fashioned hoot!

Going around helping people with their computers is OK to earn a few extra bucks but I need a REAL job damnit! I am going nutty without something structured to do. $100 an hour would be great if you did it more than a couple times per month.

Anyway it's time for a hearty helping from the brain buffet. FRIDAY FEAST


Appetizer - Name 2 things you do that you consider beneficial to your health.
I read which is beneficial for the health of the imagination. And I live with my window open 24/7 and fresh air is very good for you. I closed my window once and I was sick by morning. Needless to say it has been open again ever since.


Soup - If you made a New Year's resolution, how's it going so far?
Well I am about 30 pounds down so I would say it is going well.


Salad - Name something that has happened lately that bothers you.
I asked my sister to cut my bangs and I ended up looking like Brenda walsh on season one of 90210 (that's really bad and short bangs) Thank goodness my hair grows fast!


Main Course - What is your favorite quote, and who said it?
"I believe in the soul, the cock, the pussy, the small of a woman's back, the hanging curve ball, high fiber, good scotch, that the novels of Susan Sontag are self-indulgent, overrated crap. I believe that Lee Harvey Oswald acted alone. I believe there ought to be a constitutional amendment outlawing Astroturf and the designated hitter. I believe in the sweet spot, soft core pornography, opening your presents Christmas morning rather than Christmas Eve, and I believe in long, slow, deep, soft, wet kisses that last three days." "Crash" Davis Bull Durham



Dessert - What do you collect?
Tarot Cards, cat things, Rachael Hale Photos, celestial everything, and old, I mean old Books.

Till next we meet, behave....or not, whichever you think is more fun!

The Weekend Revisited

OK Friday's interview went well I think. I still don't know about the job yet but I still think I am in the running. It was at Home Health and the downside would be the commute but I would take it. After my interview I went and picked up my nieces and took them out to dinner with my mom and came home and crashed.

On Saturday I went and saw Hide and Seek . It was pretty good if a little slow at times.

Sunday My mom and I took three of my Nieces to see Boogeyman which I thought was OK right up until the end. I didn't care too much for the end but I liked watching Barry Watson for a couple hours. Then we shopped a while and let the girls ride the bumper cars a few times. Got some really good pictures of them hamming it up in one of the store windows.

Monday I was house cleaning and today I went for another interview. Lets hope I get one of them. Anyway I will post some of those pictures later on. For now I am gonna go catch up on reading my blogs. Thanks for all the well wishes! Oh and Happy Belated Heart Day!

Interview WooHoo!

Well boys and girls, wish me luck I have a job interview tomarrow. It would be a really good job, working for a Home Health program. Great pay an d benefits. So wish me luck OK. So I went and had my sister cut my hair and do my nails, and perdify me as best she could and am hoping for the best tomarrow. I am a walking, talking ball of nerves cuz I want this position BAD! Anyway for now it is Feast time again....


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Appetizer - What do you want for Valentine's Day?
This Job, the last job I got was on Valentines Day maybe this one will be too.


Soup - If you could change the color of something you own, what would it be and which color would you make it?
The interior of my car. It is a dingy looking Khaki color and I would prefer something darker, since I have kids ride around with me a lot.


Salad - What's your favorite day of the week and why?
I am a Friday girl always have been, but then again if I worked on weekends my favorite day might change.


Main Course - What excuse do you use most often?
Probably "I forgot" because I do all the time. Forget that is.


Dessert - Name something or someone you feel sorry for.
People who are ignorant because they choose to be.

urges

I have slight urges,
to reach out
kiss your brow,
hold your hand,
give you bliss
make your world
a softer shade,
urges to drink
so hard,
the bottle aches,
sink
into dizzy oblivion,
holding the hand
of stale
rum and
flat coke.
Sometimes they reach
so
roughly into my
skin
that I almost
carry them out
Sometimes I wish the
sun would shift to
rain
but I can't imagine
where
I'd
be without it
to brighten
my
eyes
when they're dim.
Sometimes I
feel the need to
flash a brilliant
smile and
Blind your
eyes
leaving you unable to
see my need
I get the urge
to walk away
but
here I still stand
ironically stoic
morbidly alone
these urges wash over
me,
begging me to act.
But whatever strength they
have
I hold 10 fold.


Jessica Mitchell 3/8/99

This is not, by far, my most well written piece, but it is one of the most raw pieces I have written, one of the few that really come from me and who I am.

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On another note it looks like I am going back to college, it is just a matter of what program. It is a toss up at this point between, beauty school, Medical Office Assistant, and a couple options in Computer Sciences and Multimedia Design. Which sounds most interesting to all of you? HELP!

Good Movie & Musing

Kunaal, I watched Without A Paddle it hurt a little to laugh so hard but it was worth it. That movie was hilarious. I got it because I am a fan of all 3 of the lead actors (especially Mathew Lillard) and I most definately was not disappointed!

I found my muse again and have been working on my book. It is really like taking several deep breaths right in a row, sorta giddy feeling. Putting down words and creating this life out of my own mind. I choose when these characters eat, drink, breathe, and love and hate. It sometimes takes me away from the rest of what I do every day so I can spend more time adding layers to that world that I built. Of course it is very much the same world I live in except that in the world I have written I hold all the strings, heh heh, I spose I have a God complex huh?

Cool Software

I have spent a lot of time this weekend tinkering with some software I had bought about 2 years ago. It's called WriteItNow and for those of you who are writers I would encourage you to give it a look. It can make the writing process a whole new thing. It comes with a bunch of tools for when you hit a slump, including idea and personality generators as well as allowing you to store your work in individual chapters inside of one document.

I am still a little sick but I am definately on the getting better side of it. But not so much better that my bed isn't calling me to curl up with my kitty and watch a movie. So see ya later.

Lookalike?

I am still sick but at least I can sit up for a while without getting light headed. It's raining out and breathing the wet clean air makes my head feel a little less stuffy. Thanks Mrs. Lile I was actually using the stuff you mentioned only I picked up the daytime kind, I didn't even know there were two kinds but at least now I know why it wasn't knocking me out like I wanted it to.

My niece is always getting told she looks like Dakota Fanning. She also gets told that if she had dark hair and glasses she could be Harry Potter. So here is a picture with all 3 of them, so you tell me, does she?



Friday Feast Time

Appetizer - If you were a dog, what breed would you be, and why?
a cocker Spaniel or a springer spaniel, because they aren't too big or too little and they are cute and cuddly and I grew up having them as pets.


Soup - What does the color purple make you think of?
My mom and my sister, who are both obsessed with purple pens. I am just obsessed with pens in general.


Salad - Approximately how long does it take you to get ready each morning?
Depends on what I am going to do, never more than an hour, sometimes as little as 15 minutes.


Main Course - How many cousins do you have, and are you close to them?
I think altogether around 40, that is a lot of counting. For the most part I think we are close, but we all kind of fell into age groups and those who were the same age got closer with each other.


Dessert - Take your initials (first, middle, last) and come up with something else those letters could stand for. (Example: SFO = Sweet Funny Otter)
JLM Junk Likes Me (I find it everywhere I go)

Everybody have a good evening!

cough hack wheez

So I lied, No worth while post tonight. I appear to have come down with the flu which leaves me with coughing fits, throbbing headaches, and a nasty nasty sore throat. I hate being sick because I hate whileing away the day in bed. once I am awake I am up, and I can't sleep for more than 8 hours because I can't stand laying in bed for so long at once. What is woprse is I am all sick and there is nothing to watch while I lay in misery. Everything is a repeat or a show I cannot stand. Yeah I am being a super whiner tonight, but whats new. I have been a poor sport lately. And I won't appologize for it, we all should be allowed to be grumpy now and again. Anyway I am going to go dig up some nyquil and crash and maybe tomarrow I will find my laugh again.

Pucker Up Baby

For those of you who have said such nice things the past several days I would like to say thanks and kisses, so here is a great big ol' smoooch. I will be back tomarrow with a post worth while, love ya's!