Friday, August 20, 2004

Mommy's Home...Fridays...Music

I am glad you are home Mommy. Life isn't right when I can't talk to you whenever I want. When you aren't there is when I always have something I desperately need you to hear me say. Oh by the way K, she doesn't remember your mishap off the top bunk, but hey she is old ;) she forgets things. hee hee. Anyway welcome back.

It's Friday! Friday is good, it means I don't have to wake up to the staticy radio station on my alarm clock. It means I can stay up as late as I want and spend all day tomorrow watching corny B movies on the Sci-fi channel if I want to. It means that work is a glorious 48 hours away, which in turn means my vacation begins a mere week from now. It means I can throw my hair up in a bun and careless if it looks like crap. It means that I can focus on my homework. It means I don't have to focus on my homework.

I like Fridays.

I have found a song that I can listen to again and again, the lyrics reach in and make me listen to them, and the first time I heard the song I felt I knew what the next verse would say before it was sung:

Tool "Sober"

There's a shadow just behind me
Shrouding every step I take
Making every promise empty
Pointing every finger at me
Waiting like a stalking butler
Who upon the finger rests
Murder now, the pattern called "must we"
Just because the son has come
Jesus, wont you fucking whistle?
Something but the past and done
Jesus, wont you fucking whistle
Something but the past and done

Why can't we not be sober?
I just want to start this over
And why can't we drink forever?
I just want to start this over

I am just a worthless liar
I am just an imbecile
I will only complicate you
Trust in me and fall as well
I will find a centre in you
I will chew it up and leave
I will work to elevate you
Just enough to bring you down

Mother Mary, won't you whisper?
Something but what's past and done
Mother Mary, won't you whisper?
Something but what's past and done

Why can't we not be sober?
I just want to start this over
And why can't we sleep forever?
I just want to start this over
And why?

I am just a worthless liar
I am just an imbecile
I will only complicate you
Trust in me and fall as well
I will find a centre in you
I will chew it up and leave

Trust me Trust me Trust me Trust me Trust me

Why can't we not be sober?
I just want to start things over
And why can't we sleep forever?
I just want to start this over
And why?
I want it when I want it
I want it when I want it
I want it when I want it
I want it when I want it


I also am very fond of this song by Breaking Benjamin, it feels cathardic, though I don't know why.

BREAKING BENJAMIN LYRICS "So Cold"

Crowded streets all cleared away
One by One
Hollow heroes separate
As they run

You're so cold
Keep your hand in mine
Wise men wonder whileStrong men die

[Chorus]

Show me how it ends it's alright
Show me how defenseless you really are
Satisfied and empty inside
That's alright, let's give this another try

If you find your family, don't you cry
In this land of make-believe, dead and dry

You're so cold, but you feel alive
Lay your hands on me one last time

[Chorus x2]
It's alright [x9]

I am a media junkie and force feed my tastes on all whom I can reach, It just feels like the right thing to do.

Ta~

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